hanging on !

boo !

okaayy, it had been tough for me for these few dayys ..

i almost gt kicked out from my course ..

sick too much & skip 1 one day of tutorials with 2 different tutorials on that dayy with no MC !

stupid amaaa ....

haiyaaa .

im destroying myself i know ..

im becoming a doltish MONSTER nw .

i barely noe myself .

i gt issues .

and i've started smoking agaaain .

pffffft !
sis and zul were pissed .

BUT ! im back in school !

and im trying my best to get back on track .

and i guess im gtting e hang of it nowww ..

thaaanks to my babes toooooo ...

Might be wondering wadd happened btwn me & zulkhairi aris ........

we're fineee ..

just maybe i may nt be able to spend much tym with hym

as im trying hard to gt bck to my studies and  projects .
just wish i could do this .

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i got issues with projects !

boo !

yup , loads of projects need to be done .

this is stressing me up .

i'll be stuck with my panda eyes forever ............

okaaay so yyeaaaah ..

aniways sis been bragging me abt something and shes starting to piss me off 

 , went to e clinic e other dayy ,

e doc told me if e meds doesnt work ,

i may need to go to e hospital for a blood test ..

wadd craps ryte i know ..

im a healthy person .

okay gtg a short post for now .

its almost 10pm and im stil in school .

gt to head home ..~~

its been 2 days .

boo ~

as you can see im stuck at home .

i donoe wadd i did for e past few days .

i spent e whole dayy eating i guess ?

ahaha ,, kaaay no , i did went to my grandma's hse .

went for jamming with my uncle and sis ,

practising for Busu's wedding .

we're better now .

mom book-ed me and sis earlier . lols .

she told us shes bringing us to escape this coming week .

she said , to relax and spent some tym with us .

im looking forward for it .

its been some tym we hadnt spent tym with each other .

(;

i noe im being such a kiddo buutttt ........

zul is coming back tomoro !

atlast . lols .

miss hym a lot nw .

yesterday ,waited for hym to online .

till arnd 1+ am  .

god i was super happy .

(;

he called me ..

just for a lil while .

im a happier person nw , really .

and i love him a lot .

nt sure why and how i can really love hym like e way i love zulfikar .

i noe its impossible at first ,

bt i guess anything can happen hah ?

:)

aniways , yanti told me this guy ATLAST

asked her to be hys gf !

 yyeaaaaaaah !

she was very happy when she told me that .

lols .

im happy for her .

bt she told me ders this girl kept texting hym  .

wouldnt want to make her think negatively ,

told her probably shes just a friend .

told her nt to rush , give hym sometym .

if really hes sincere and truthful to her and reallyy loves her

he will wait .

if he dares to hurt her , im KILLING hym !

lols .

me , ana , humaira and luqman will rescue her frm e evil ass !

amalina e HIDUNG BABI monster .

ana e ALIEN -FACED monster .

humaira e KOTAK monster .

aaanddd ....

luqman e KUDE LAUT HAIRY monster !

btw , bazlee apologised . lols . he did nth wrong . silly guy .

confused . we barely talk with each other nw . nt sure why .

;) tc baz .

byeee .

boo ~

its 4+ am . im stil wide awake .

i want to stay awake .

zul is going KL later . arnd 5 in e morning i think .

for 3 days .

-.-

gonna miss hym a lot  .

went to e concert with hym just nw at RP , reached home arnd 12 plus . 

thankgod dad was nt arnd .  

e concert was fun  . (;

zul's brother dint go .

his daughter was great .

he should be so proud .

chinese orchestra performance , playing cello .

zul was laughing ol e wayy .

ahaha . bt it was very good .

den they have band , dance and ol sorts of performances .

Tabitha performed = -.-

love her voice , just nt a big fan of hers .

dint managed to take pics laaa . my phone camera quality is pretty bad .

zul's phone just went dead when we reached woodlands . 

kaaay ... so i dint gt my coffee bean job i guess ? 

hopefully i gt e job   . 

my batt was flat frm morning till arnd afternoon .

it was off .

damn laa .

);

very sad .

GLEE !

I LOVE GLEE !

must watch bby .

wednesday !

this is scaaaary .

http://www.butter-zirong.blogspot.com/

Humaira is very mean .

Thks for this !

i was screaming like hell .

XD

???????

The more happiness we bring to others , the happier we ourselves become .

The purpose of life is to become happy . The purpose of life is to challenge and triumph over the darkness of misery .

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web-cam-ed !

boo~

its 3o'oclock in morning , i cant sleep .

zul is angry at me i think .

-.-

haiyaaaa .

hes jealous .

ahaha

ME KUNGA CHITEH .

planning to stay awake till arnd 6+ wen he wakes up , to sayy sorry .

ahaha .

aniways , web-cam-ed ol e wayy todaayy .

onlyy zair , adli and humaira vid call .

anaaa went offline when humaira and i patheticly waited for her to join us in oovoo .

pfft . -.- ana , meet me at mushroom okaay .you know i know ah .

im bringing my gaang along ah . that includes OLIVE . ahaha .

wanted to web-cam-ed with iqah .

she rejected it .

);

bz i guess .

it okaaay .

okay , so ,

its e 1st week of my hols !

yyeah2 .

loads of plans .

BBQ with my mom's side family ,

going sentosa with short(Iqah, you can ?) ,

 blood donation with burp2 ,

going out with Faz ,

picnic with danial and ol ,

going out with my TPs' babes and dude(i dint reply luqman. sorry dude. purposely. hehe) , 

4E9's outing ,

picnic and tawning with zul ?

i think dats it .

nt sure if i have e tym .

anxiously waiting for

 dis fri , meeting zul's brother .

-.- kaay , im nervous . -.-

going to watch his brother's daughter performance at her school .

super CUTE .

^.^

looking forward .

dad and i work-ed things out .

we're okay now .

afterall he is my dad .

why not i organise something for us .

NIGHT SAFARI !

i gt discount tix from HSA .

leeeeeeeets go . telling sis abt it wen she wakes up .

zZzZzZzZzZ

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lyfe is pissing me off .

boo ~

im nt sure if i should be feeling mad or downcast about it .

i gt nagged , blamed .

im not sure wadd i did that my parents treat me this wayy .

dad :

hes been such a nagger and unreasonable .

just todayy ,

tantrums .

i got plans with iqah today .

thks to hym , decided not to go .

yesterday ,

he was shouting on the phone scolding me and talking craps .

just bcause i was late to help hym on something .

i have assignment to be done on that particular dayy .

i tried my best to rush .

i gt so pissed off .

he tasked me to help hym ,last minute stuffs, hw am i supposed to know and manage my time ?

-_-

i felt bad .

i run ol e way frm home to e bloody place .

on tym , i was lucky .

mom :

i dont want to elaborate .

loads of stuffs with mom that i think i must find ways to work things out with her . 

holidays ? i rather go to school . 

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considering ...............

boo ~

hmm .. theres a few odd and random things i've planned to do during e holidays .

1 :

urrrmmmm ...

as you can see ...

im considering smoking agaaain .

i donoe wadds gt into me ..

bt really im craving for it .

i mean like really , if you noe how to control its okaay .

-.-

but im still CONSIDERING tho .

zul will kill me .

2:

i was thinking of gtting Humaira's kind of fringe . XD

3:

get myself a few more jobs .

before i start schooling again . 

 4:

extremely odd and random surprises for zul . ;)

5:

listen  and check out House and techno remix kind of songs .

thks to Luqman im addicted to it .

-_-

for now thats it .... more soon . lols .

probably a tattoo ??

NO . ahaha . dat will nvr happen in my life .

im stil sane . 

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CRAIG MABBIT !

I LOVE HYM :

vengeance .

i just love hys uniform and hym . lols .

boo ~

heyy im currently doing my academic writing .

i give up .

i'll just do it .

die2 must finish it by today .

tmr dateline .

stupid ass . -_-

just gt to noe hys att nw .

finally , e truth frm hym . 

i nvr lie to you .

you nvr asked abt hym either and ur "we can stil be friends" , craps . 

and dont try to hide things from me , i know u tooo well . 

i know when u're changing . 

manipulating stories right from e beginning .

im nt stupid either .

 i really love zul .

u love her i guess ?

if u still want to act like an ego freak kind of guy ,

suits yourself .

GERONTOLOGY : Alzheimer disease . wipe out ol my memories .

Dementia ??

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